From each letter of the alphabet write a word connected with you
A: Andrew. Hehe. Funny he's the first thing that comes to mind for A =P
B: Boredom. I am unfortunately very easily bored.
C: Caitlin, cause it's my name =P
D: Drawing. I love it, even though I'm not particularly good.
E: Elephants. I have a bit of an obsession with them on occasion.
F: Fuck! Heh. Need I say more?
G: Grinning. I like it.
H: Hugs. I love them. They make my world.
I: Internet =P Because I live here in the intarwebz, my house is this screen.
J: Jelly, cause I love it. Especially vodka jelly ;P
K: Kisses, cause they're sweet. And something I do a lot =P
L: Love. It's an addiction of mine.
M: Mind. Mine doesn't make a whole lot of sense most of the time, but it's getting better (thank you).
N: NOODLES! Cause I love instant noodles more than is healthy =P
O: Octave, for music. Obsessive, cause I am. Observer, cause that's what I do.
P: Persistent. In an annoying way. Photography, cause I love it.
Q: Questions. "Why, why, why, why, why?" - although Robbie's suggestion is 'quirky', which I find amusing =P
R: RANDOM! That was so obvious but took me ages to think of -.-"
S: Silly. In a childish kinda way. I like being silly.
T: Thinking, cause I do too much of it.
U: Undressed. I'm like that a lot of the time =P
V: Vent. I'm good for venting shit at. Like rage and whatnot.
W: Weird - and proud :D
X: X-rated =P (tee hee)
Y: Yellow. It makes me feel happy.
Z: zzZZZ (sleepy sleepy sleepy)
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
One of These
1. What's the one door you wish you'd never opened? Er... probably one with naked people behind it. But ugly naked people. No, I don't know. Haven't a clue.
2. What is your most obsessive thought? "Why?"
3. Where is your favourite place in the world, and why? Pulled over by the side of Cotter Road, sitting in Andrew's car and talking for five hours straight.
4. What's the one thing your parents don't understand about you? How much I love sex :P
5. If you could relive a single day or moment, what would it be? 4th January, gazebo thing in Eddison Park, stroking Andrew's hair.
6. What were the strangest circumstances under which you have been intimate? Depends how you've been intimate - if not-quite sex counts then there are a HUGE bunch that you do not want to know at all. If only sex counts, there's only a RATHER SUBSTANTIAL bunch.
7. Under what circumstances have you been closest to death? Er... hm. I don't know?
8. What is the most gracious act of kindness you have witnessed? I don't know. All my friends are graciously kind so none in particular stand out, though I was impressed at the calmness Andrew managed while being terribly nice to a girl who reversed into his car, completely destroying the door.
9. What is the worst betrayal you have ever experienced? I haven't really, as such, been betrayed. Though I have been shocked in rather nasty ways.
10. What is the most bizarre thing you have seen or done? Seen - me. Done - Andrew ;)
11. What is the greatest risk you have ever taken? Erm... *coughthebaycough* maybe.
12. What is your earliest, most vivid memory? Building the most AWESOME bridge-oid structure out of wooden blocks only to have it knocked down by a girl with a Dorothy the Dinosaur hat - whose name I believe was Victoria. This in preschool.
13. What is the most meaningful "I love you" spoken by you or to you? The first one from Andrew. That was pretty meaningful. Pretty goddamned meaningful. It made me very happy :P
14. What was the single most terrifying moment of your life? Probably the moment Stuart broke up with me - mostly because I was simply so confused and uncomprehending.
15. If you have experienced a moment of sudden faith or loss of faith, what prompted it? Ah... sudden faith - Andrew. Sudden loss of faith - well, I can't answer that without sounding bitchy - and who cares, anyway, Andrew brought it back to me :) By faith, I mean in humankind, and love, and happiness, and everything good. Not in any sort of religious way.
16. If you could take back one thing you have done, what would it be? Hrm... I can't really think of any.
17. What is your greatest talent or accomplishment? An amazing luck ;)
18. What is the most joyful moment you have experienced? Er... first time Andrew said 'I love you', first time he took me up Mt. Stromlo in his vroomy car, that time we spent ages at the side of the road talking about everything from emotions to the school system...
19. What is the most painful moment you have experienced? Huh, being dumped, easy.
20. Open Question: Submit your own question and answer. No answer is off-limits, and can be on any personal theme. Here is a sample list of 20: abortion, addiction, adolescence, break-ups, crime, death, depression, eating disorders, humor, lucky breaks, mental disorders, moral dilemmas, pets, poverty, racism, religion, sex, suicide, turning points, war.
Lucky Breaks: Andrew! He is my lucky break :) He is the BEST FARKING COINCIDENCE EVARR XD. I loves him muchly <3
2. What is your most obsessive thought? "Why?"
3. Where is your favourite place in the world, and why? Pulled over by the side of Cotter Road, sitting in Andrew's car and talking for five hours straight.
4. What's the one thing your parents don't understand about you? How much I love sex :P
5. If you could relive a single day or moment, what would it be? 4th January, gazebo thing in Eddison Park, stroking Andrew's hair.
6. What were the strangest circumstances under which you have been intimate? Depends how you've been intimate - if not-quite sex counts then there are a HUGE bunch that you do not want to know at all. If only sex counts, there's only a RATHER SUBSTANTIAL bunch.
7. Under what circumstances have you been closest to death? Er... hm. I don't know?
8. What is the most gracious act of kindness you have witnessed? I don't know. All my friends are graciously kind so none in particular stand out, though I was impressed at the calmness Andrew managed while being terribly nice to a girl who reversed into his car, completely destroying the door.
9. What is the worst betrayal you have ever experienced? I haven't really, as such, been betrayed. Though I have been shocked in rather nasty ways.
10. What is the most bizarre thing you have seen or done? Seen - me. Done - Andrew ;)
11. What is the greatest risk you have ever taken? Erm... *coughthebaycough* maybe.
12. What is your earliest, most vivid memory? Building the most AWESOME bridge-oid structure out of wooden blocks only to have it knocked down by a girl with a Dorothy the Dinosaur hat - whose name I believe was Victoria. This in preschool.
13. What is the most meaningful "I love you" spoken by you or to you? The first one from Andrew. That was pretty meaningful. Pretty goddamned meaningful. It made me very happy :P
14. What was the single most terrifying moment of your life? Probably the moment Stuart broke up with me - mostly because I was simply so confused and uncomprehending.
15. If you have experienced a moment of sudden faith or loss of faith, what prompted it? Ah... sudden faith - Andrew. Sudden loss of faith - well, I can't answer that without sounding bitchy - and who cares, anyway, Andrew brought it back to me :) By faith, I mean in humankind, and love, and happiness, and everything good. Not in any sort of religious way.
16. If you could take back one thing you have done, what would it be? Hrm... I can't really think of any.
17. What is your greatest talent or accomplishment? An amazing luck ;)
18. What is the most joyful moment you have experienced? Er... first time Andrew said 'I love you', first time he took me up Mt. Stromlo in his vroomy car, that time we spent ages at the side of the road talking about everything from emotions to the school system...
19. What is the most painful moment you have experienced? Huh, being dumped, easy.
20. Open Question: Submit your own question and answer. No answer is off-limits, and can be on any personal theme. Here is a sample list of 20: abortion, addiction, adolescence, break-ups, crime, death, depression, eating disorders, humor, lucky breaks, mental disorders, moral dilemmas, pets, poverty, racism, religion, sex, suicide, turning points, war.
Lucky Breaks: Andrew! He is my lucky break :) He is the BEST FARKING COINCIDENCE EVARR XD. I loves him muchly <3
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Contentment > Pants.
Caitlin is bored, blog time!
Welp, not much has been happening lately - hence my boredom - but despite the lack of anything particularly exciting, I'm feeling pretty damn good.
Reasons that I would normally not feel good that for some reason (not pointing any fingers =p ) are not affecting me:
- Maattthhs! It bores the crap out of me! And we have some tedious assignment about the stock exchange! BLUGH!
- Psychology is also boring the crap out of me and we have an assignment.
- School in general is sucky.
- I have to audition in drama because for once I want a good part instead of always being the boring unnoticed background role.
- I miss Maddie and don't see enough of anyone else who is still here apart from Skye, and even then, time spent with her is never enough =p
- I am sleeping awfully.
Respective reasons why these things in particular don't really matter:
- Even if it's boring, it's easy as all hell and thankfully, so long as I don't let it mount up, should be simple to do.
- Same here for psychology. Plus, the essay topic's not too bad and should be relatively easy for me.
- Meh. It's school. It's meant to be sucky.
- Psh, if you want something you have to work for it.
- I can talk to everyone on the phone and on MSN, even if I don't see them.
- For some bizarre reason I'm not really needing much sleep at the moment, and a lot of my particularly sleepless nights are sleepless because Andrew is with me - best possible reason not to sleep.
I've been on an almost constant stream of good-mood-ness since the beginning of January. I mean, there have been upsets, but they're the right kind of upsets - I get upset BRIEFLY and then get over it quickly. This is a vast improvement on the way I've been since about year eight - getting upset over nothing for long periods of time and working myself into depressions.
And, I don't know, there's just been meh-ness. Since about year eight, I don't think anything triggered then apart from teenageyness, I've been kind of lost and confused about everything. I've been completely up and down - and while the highs were rather exhilarating, they felt hollow because I know a low would be coming, and the lows were dreadful - I've been confused myself, not really knowing who I was or anything about myself.
You know, people ask you about yourself and I would always be like, "I dunno." and then list flaws. But I think that's always been something that would be temporary; that just needed something to trigger it to end. For me that something has been Andrew. In him I discover everything I had loved and let go of - music (playing it and listening to it), photography, general madness, confidence, drawing... and a whole lot of new things.
The way I am, if somebody is enthusiastic about something, I tend to catch that enthusiasm. Andrew has introduced me to enjoying cars - though not knowing anything about them, that would be too much effort =p - to new wonders of the internet =p, to the power of not really caring what strangers think of you, and to the joy of knowing someone who really, REALLY gets you.
So yeah, I've been reminded of everything I used to do that made me me. I've been reminded that I can create my own world, pull in all the things that are important to me and weave them into who I am. I've been playing guitar, actually learning, and playing more piano. I've been drawing again, though still not much as I have also been doing things that I should - like walking the dog, making dinner, keeping up with my schoolwork - that take time. I've rediscovered the delights of spare time, and also of just sometimes not having it.
It's like a huge rush, and this great feeling of, "Oh, right! THIS is me! I remember, now!"
Anyway, yeah. Been feeling good. Got myself a deviantART, if you feel like checking it out here
, put up some of my better oldish photos, plus one or two newish ones.
And yeah... don't gots too much to say but 'Mmm...'
Contentment is so highly underrated.
Even more underrated than pants are overrated.
Welp, not much has been happening lately - hence my boredom - but despite the lack of anything particularly exciting, I'm feeling pretty damn good.
Reasons that I would normally not feel good that for some reason (not pointing any fingers =p ) are not affecting me:
- Maattthhs! It bores the crap out of me! And we have some tedious assignment about the stock exchange! BLUGH!
- Psychology is also boring the crap out of me and we have an assignment.
- School in general is sucky.
- I have to audition in drama because for once I want a good part instead of always being the boring unnoticed background role.
- I miss Maddie and don't see enough of anyone else who is still here apart from Skye, and even then, time spent with her is never enough =p
- I am sleeping awfully.
Respective reasons why these things in particular don't really matter:
- Even if it's boring, it's easy as all hell and thankfully, so long as I don't let it mount up, should be simple to do.
- Same here for psychology. Plus, the essay topic's not too bad and should be relatively easy for me.
- Meh. It's school. It's meant to be sucky.
- Psh, if you want something you have to work for it.
- I can talk to everyone on the phone and on MSN, even if I don't see them.
- For some bizarre reason I'm not really needing much sleep at the moment, and a lot of my particularly sleepless nights are sleepless because Andrew is with me - best possible reason not to sleep.
I've been on an almost constant stream of good-mood-ness since the beginning of January. I mean, there have been upsets, but they're the right kind of upsets - I get upset BRIEFLY and then get over it quickly. This is a vast improvement on the way I've been since about year eight - getting upset over nothing for long periods of time and working myself into depressions.
And, I don't know, there's just been meh-ness. Since about year eight, I don't think anything triggered then apart from teenageyness, I've been kind of lost and confused about everything. I've been completely up and down - and while the highs were rather exhilarating, they felt hollow because I know a low would be coming, and the lows were dreadful - I've been confused myself, not really knowing who I was or anything about myself.
You know, people ask you about yourself and I would always be like, "I dunno." and then list flaws. But I think that's always been something that would be temporary; that just needed something to trigger it to end. For me that something has been Andrew. In him I discover everything I had loved and let go of - music (playing it and listening to it), photography, general madness, confidence, drawing... and a whole lot of new things.
The way I am, if somebody is enthusiastic about something, I tend to catch that enthusiasm. Andrew has introduced me to enjoying cars - though not knowing anything about them, that would be too much effort =p - to new wonders of the internet =p, to the power of not really caring what strangers think of you, and to the joy of knowing someone who really, REALLY gets you.
So yeah, I've been reminded of everything I used to do that made me me. I've been reminded that I can create my own world, pull in all the things that are important to me and weave them into who I am. I've been playing guitar, actually learning, and playing more piano. I've been drawing again, though still not much as I have also been doing things that I should - like walking the dog, making dinner, keeping up with my schoolwork - that take time. I've rediscovered the delights of spare time, and also of just sometimes not having it.
It's like a huge rush, and this great feeling of, "Oh, right! THIS is me! I remember, now!"
Anyway, yeah. Been feeling good. Got myself a deviantART, if you feel like checking it out here
, put up some of my better oldish photos, plus one or two newish ones.
And yeah... don't gots too much to say but 'Mmm...'
Contentment is so highly underrated.
Even more underrated than pants are overrated.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Caitlin's Commandments:
1. Anyone who likes the 'red' flavour (you know the one) is an infidel and must be shunned. Very shunned. (... with knives.)
2. Just because there is no reason to use such an extraneous or superfluous word as 'extraneous' or 'superfluous', does not mean one should not use said words. In fact, bonus points to those who do.
3. No. Just, no.
4. MySpace is a sin that sends you to... waiting for Firefly fans to jump in and beat me to the quote I'm about to use... A very special kind of hell. The kind of hell reserved for child molesters, and people who talk in theatres. NO MYSPACE. Everytime you create a myspace account, Caitlin stabs a midget. Please, think of the midgets.
5. Stop mocking me for being a freak. "Yes, I'm a freak, but I have rights!" (Oh swoon, Bernard Black, have my babies!)
6. Thou shalt have no other god but me... and also the following: Dylan Moran, Terry Pratchett, Douglas Adams, any member of the Monty Python team (including any dead ones), a pleasant computer of your choice (if, however, it is shite, you will be smote [... smoten, smited, smitterised, I don't know]), Maddie, Skye, Andrew's happy-noise-joy-car-yay, or Andrew himself. Everyone else, not for worshipping. Or else... another midget bites the dust. And dust isn't very tasty, so we wouldn't want that. THINK OF THE MIDGETS!
7. The following items are holy: Pie. Pi. Instant noodles. Cupcakes with good icing. Especially good toasted sandwiches. Sex. Snuggles. Pillows. Bricks. Any combination of the last two. xkcd. Randomosity. A collection of obscure and extraneous/superfluous/for-those-of-you-who-are-not-walking-dictionaries-'unnecessary'-or-'irrelevant' words. Clear contact - the kind for covering books. Particularly comfortable, attractive, and cheap shoes. Also my lot. By lot I mean collection of random friends, family, and people-I-don't-know-but-maybe-if-I-did-I-might-like-them-and-maybe-we-could-be-friends-if-it's-not-too-much-trouble...
8. And lo, theLord Lady declared that there were to be naps and joy, and there were naps and joy. Because naps are good. And joy is good. Fetch me my ice lolly.
9. Be polite. Always wear clean underwear (or none at all, if you are so inclined.) Don't judge. Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself. Always have clean bedsheets. All of those kind of things. Otherwise, you will die bitter and lonely, upside down on the floor of a pub toilet.
10. PISS MIDGET!
2. Just because there is no reason to use such an extraneous or superfluous word as 'extraneous' or 'superfluous', does not mean one should not use said words. In fact, bonus points to those who do.
3. No. Just, no.
4. MySpace is a sin that sends you to... waiting for Firefly fans to jump in and beat me to the quote I'm about to use... A very special kind of hell. The kind of hell reserved for child molesters, and people who talk in theatres. NO MYSPACE. Everytime you create a myspace account, Caitlin stabs a midget. Please, think of the midgets.
5. Stop mocking me for being a freak. "Yes, I'm a freak, but I have rights!" (Oh swoon, Bernard Black, have my babies!)
6. Thou shalt have no other god but me... and also the following: Dylan Moran, Terry Pratchett, Douglas Adams, any member of the Monty Python team (including any dead ones), a pleasant computer of your choice (if, however, it is shite, you will be smote [... smoten, smited, smitterised, I don't know]), Maddie, Skye, Andrew's happy-noise-joy-car-yay, or Andrew himself. Everyone else, not for worshipping. Or else... another midget bites the dust. And dust isn't very tasty, so we wouldn't want that. THINK OF THE MIDGETS!
7. The following items are holy: Pie. Pi. Instant noodles. Cupcakes with good icing. Especially good toasted sandwiches. Sex. Snuggles. Pillows. Bricks. Any combination of the last two. xkcd. Randomosity. A collection of obscure and extraneous/superfluous/for-those-of-you-who-are-not-walking-dictionaries-'unnecessary'-or-'irrelevant' words. Clear contact - the kind for covering books. Particularly comfortable, attractive, and cheap shoes. Also my lot. By lot I mean collection of random friends, family, and people-I-don't-know-but-maybe-if-I-did-I-might-like-them-and-maybe-we-could-be-friends-if-it's-not-too-much-trouble...
8. And lo, the
9. Be polite. Always wear clean underwear (or none at all, if you are so inclined.) Don't judge. Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself. Always have clean bedsheets. All of those kind of things. Otherwise, you will die bitter and lonely, upside down on the floor of a pub toilet.
10. PISS MIDGET!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Rain - Shel Silverstein.
I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.
I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.
~
Admittedly it is better before it starts getting silly... but yes... tis nice.
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.
I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.
~
Admittedly it is better before it starts getting silly... but yes... tis nice.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Music! Woo!
Meemix.com = Love
What it is, basically, is internet radio that learns what you like. You start by entering a song or artist, and it finds similar music. You teach it what to play and what not to play by rating the songs it gives you. It is similar to Pandora, which I used to use, but which no longer works outside of America, due to restrictions on the licence it currently operates under.
What it is, basically, is internet radio that learns what you like. You start by entering a song or artist, and it finds similar music. You teach it what to play and what not to play by rating the songs it gives you. It is similar to Pandora, which I used to use, but which no longer works outside of America, due to restrictions on the licence it currently operates under.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Monday, December 31, 2007
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
(break and solo)
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Friday, December 28, 2007
Fired (Well, actually, I just didn't get a job I applied for...)
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Comfortably Numb
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
And She Was
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Kryptonite
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Miss You
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Love Should
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Beautiful World
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
21st Century
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
10am Automatic
WHAT IS 2+2?
Here Without You
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Won't Go Home Without You
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Slow Hands
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
My Friend Robot
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Zak & Sara (... multiple personalities?)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
In My Arms
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Positively 4th Street
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Lips of an Angel (Erm... making out is a hobby/interest? Sadly one that I am failing to pursue right now :( )
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Monday (ahahahaha... crap)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
(Baby I've Got You) On My Mind (Hey, that's no secret =\ )
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Come Away With Me
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Fired
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Comfortably Numb
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
And She Was
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Kryptonite
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Miss You
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Love Should
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Beautiful World
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
21st Century
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
10am Automatic
WHAT IS 2+2?
Here Without You
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Won't Go Home Without You
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Slow Hands
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
My Friend Robot
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Zak & Sara (... multiple personalities?)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
In My Arms
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Positively 4th Street
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Lips of an Angel (Erm... making out is a hobby/interest? Sadly one that I am failing to pursue right now :( )
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Monday (ahahahaha... crap)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
(Baby I've Got You) On My Mind (Hey, that's no secret =\ )
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Come Away With Me
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Fired
Monday, November 12, 2007
Jack Black Caused The Extinction Of The Dinosaurs
(And Is A Terrible Actor, Which Is Nearly As Bad)
Oh my god, could it be, anything but that, no, not...
an update!
(Dun dun dun)
(Dramatic reverb + token crushing of native and gratuitous display of flesh)
I have double tea.
Two tea bags, twice as much milk, and twice as much sugar as normal people.
Because water is the boring part of tea.
As anyone pondering upon this will no doubt have surmised, I am procrastinating.
Psychology essay.
Also ToK essay.
What I have so far for my psych. one:
"Constructive memory" - rather than reconstructing & telling what happened, parts of or whole memories are constructed. This may be due to what we "know" should have happened (social sensibilities), suggestions (often unintentional) about details, or post-event acquisition of knowledge ("That guy was a serial killer" = "Yes, I definitely remember him carrying a gun")
- Only recall bits and pieces => invent links that make sense
- *retrieval cues* too broad => memories mix (three different visits to the park become one, for example, or a dream about a park and a general concept of what should happen at parks are mixed in)
- suggestion => "When the man and woman *crashed* into each other, how fast were they going? "Crash" makes people imagine that they must have been going quickly to 'crash' when in reality they may just have bumped while moving slowly. This is why 'leading questions' are not allowed from lawyers to witnesses in court trials.
Is okay so far? Considering that's just notes and vague outlines, yes?
I'm also checking out (vaguely) the general state of society in 1933 New York.
No reason :)
Apart from it being kind of useful in our English oral =P
We're discussing King Kong being a classic of the speculative fiction genre, and we need context. So context is my researching job tonight.
What we learned from watching the 2005 King Kong was that Jack Black cannot act.
Also his character is a nasty, nasty man.
He caused the extinction of the dinosaurs and the death of the only Sensitive New Aged Gorilla to ever exist - King Kong.
It was very heart-rending.
Especially how Sexy Beast Kong's death was so drawn out :(
I drew a picture.
It's slightly confusing.
And on the side I wrote:
Thoughts are not an effective hiding place.
Big words don't protect you.
You can't chase people away forever.
Sooner or later,
you're going to have to
let someone in.
I'm not even sure who I was thinking of. Possibly me. I tend to argue using unnecessarily long and complex words. I figure, if they don't understand me, their dislike can be brushed off as ignorance. I can always claim, if backed into a corner, that there was a linguistic misunderstanding, and somehow I am still right.
I have a problem with hiding in amongst my thoughts. I feel like a goldfish trying to hide in a tacky plastic seaweed.
I can claim to be thinking and being philosophical, when in reality my thoughts are flimsy and shallow. Caitlin = goldfish, thoughts = plastic seaweed.
I tend to argue with people as my first mode of defence. If I'm worried someone won't like me, I'll be rude to them.
The only way for me to feel confident is to push the needs and feelings of others out of my head until after I've got through a situation.
And then I feel horrible, and nobody has really interacted with me at all, making the whole bullshit process redundant.
I've been feeling odd over the past week or two.
Bad odd.
I realised I haven't been writing in my diary. Or on here. Instead I've been spilling to Stuart. I'm sure he's tiring of it. Perhaps writing here or trying to keep up the diarying will direct some of my whining away from him. He's a beautifully patient and tolerant person, but I'm terrified I'll push him to the point where he can't take any more of me.
He was upset about something today, and wouldn't tell me what it was. He wouldn't talk about it, and somehow that made me sad. Most of it was, "There's something so wrong he won't talk about it?" kind of worrying. But part of it was, "I tell you everything, I try to explain my actions and feelings to show you it's not you that makes me get upset like I do, and you can't trust me in return to tell me what's upsetting you"... in not telling me what the matter was, I guess he wasn't showing me that it wasn't my fault, which is all I would have needed short term. Very short term. Five minutes after that reassurance I would be worrying away again. I'm worrying terribly now...
I worry very much about my friends and the people I love.
I want to have them all in sight so that I can stop any harm coming to them.
Me and Maddie and Skye were talking last night, about how, if Skye and Luke were in an open relationship, and Luke went off and tried new things and then came back to Skye, she would know that they had something more than anything else they could find.
I sort of realised, that I can't let anyone go, not even for a moment, for fear that they won't come back. I need an emotional stranglehold on everyone around me, like a leash, I can't bear to see people leaving, even if it's only briefly.
So sometimes I get controlling. Stuart darling, if you wind up reading this, I'm sorry for clinging so much and not wanting to let you go ever, maybe this pondering is making some sense out of it.
I sometimes feel like I'm unintentionally being manipulative. Or that it might seem that way. And those times are the times where I insist that I am fine, or that I am too dignified/proud to cry in public, and ignore things that normally make me break down.
I wonder what other people wonder. I wonder how I might describe myself. I seem very contradictory.
Manipulative and sometimes naïve; childish and cynical; slightly tired of everything but curious about most other stuff. Often withdrawn but hyperactive. Stupid and nerdy. I don't really make a whole lot of sense.
Mlarp.
I'm out of credit (I'm out of money)
I hate not being able to call people. But several times during the last few days, not having any credit has probably been a good thing.
That is, it's stopped me, say, ringing Stuart in the middle of the night. Which I am currently really wanting to do. But I'd wake the siblings.
If I still really need to talk to him when I go to bed (and it's not like, 4am), I'll call him.
Eh, fuck it, I am going to bed.
an update!
(Dun dun dun)
(Dramatic reverb + token crushing of native and gratuitous display of flesh)
I have double tea.
Two tea bags, twice as much milk, and twice as much sugar as normal people.
Because water is the boring part of tea.
As anyone pondering upon this will no doubt have surmised, I am procrastinating.
Psychology essay.
Also ToK essay.
What I have so far for my psych. one:
"Constructive memory" - rather than reconstructing & telling what happened, parts of or whole memories are constructed. This may be due to what we "know" should have happened (social sensibilities), suggestions (often unintentional) about details, or post-event acquisition of knowledge ("That guy was a serial killer" = "Yes, I definitely remember him carrying a gun")
- Only recall bits and pieces => invent links that make sense
- *retrieval cues* too broad => memories mix (three different visits to the park become one, for example, or a dream about a park and a general concept of what should happen at parks are mixed in)
- suggestion => "When the man and woman *crashed* into each other, how fast were they going? "Crash" makes people imagine that they must have been going quickly to 'crash' when in reality they may just have bumped while moving slowly. This is why 'leading questions' are not allowed from lawyers to witnesses in court trials.
Is okay so far? Considering that's just notes and vague outlines, yes?
I'm also checking out (vaguely) the general state of society in 1933 New York.
No reason :)
Apart from it being kind of useful in our English oral =P
We're discussing King Kong being a classic of the speculative fiction genre, and we need context. So context is my researching job tonight.
What we learned from watching the 2005 King Kong was that Jack Black cannot act.
Also his character is a nasty, nasty man.
He caused the extinction of the dinosaurs and the death of the only Sensitive New Aged Gorilla to ever exist - King Kong.
It was very heart-rending.
Especially how Sexy Beast Kong's death was so drawn out :(
I drew a picture.
It's slightly confusing.
And on the side I wrote:
Thoughts are not an effective hiding place.
Big words don't protect you.
You can't chase people away forever.
Sooner or later,
you're going to have to
let someone in.
I'm not even sure who I was thinking of. Possibly me. I tend to argue using unnecessarily long and complex words. I figure, if they don't understand me, their dislike can be brushed off as ignorance. I can always claim, if backed into a corner, that there was a linguistic misunderstanding, and somehow I am still right.
I have a problem with hiding in amongst my thoughts. I feel like a goldfish trying to hide in a tacky plastic seaweed.
I can claim to be thinking and being philosophical, when in reality my thoughts are flimsy and shallow. Caitlin = goldfish, thoughts = plastic seaweed.
I tend to argue with people as my first mode of defence. If I'm worried someone won't like me, I'll be rude to them.
The only way for me to feel confident is to push the needs and feelings of others out of my head until after I've got through a situation.
And then I feel horrible, and nobody has really interacted with me at all, making the whole bullshit process redundant.
I've been feeling odd over the past week or two.
Bad odd.
I realised I haven't been writing in my diary. Or on here. Instead I've been spilling to Stuart. I'm sure he's tiring of it. Perhaps writing here or trying to keep up the diarying will direct some of my whining away from him. He's a beautifully patient and tolerant person, but I'm terrified I'll push him to the point where he can't take any more of me.
He was upset about something today, and wouldn't tell me what it was. He wouldn't talk about it, and somehow that made me sad. Most of it was, "There's something so wrong he won't talk about it?" kind of worrying. But part of it was, "I tell you everything, I try to explain my actions and feelings to show you it's not you that makes me get upset like I do, and you can't trust me in return to tell me what's upsetting you"... in not telling me what the matter was, I guess he wasn't showing me that it wasn't my fault, which is all I would have needed short term. Very short term. Five minutes after that reassurance I would be worrying away again. I'm worrying terribly now...
I worry very much about my friends and the people I love.
I want to have them all in sight so that I can stop any harm coming to them.
Me and Maddie and Skye were talking last night, about how, if Skye and Luke were in an open relationship, and Luke went off and tried new things and then came back to Skye, she would know that they had something more than anything else they could find.
I sort of realised, that I can't let anyone go, not even for a moment, for fear that they won't come back. I need an emotional stranglehold on everyone around me, like a leash, I can't bear to see people leaving, even if it's only briefly.
So sometimes I get controlling. Stuart darling, if you wind up reading this, I'm sorry for clinging so much and not wanting to let you go ever, maybe this pondering is making some sense out of it.
I sometimes feel like I'm unintentionally being manipulative. Or that it might seem that way. And those times are the times where I insist that I am fine, or that I am too dignified/proud to cry in public, and ignore things that normally make me break down.
I wonder what other people wonder. I wonder how I might describe myself. I seem very contradictory.
Manipulative and sometimes naïve; childish and cynical; slightly tired of everything but curious about most other stuff. Often withdrawn but hyperactive. Stupid and nerdy. I don't really make a whole lot of sense.
Mlarp.
I'm out of credit (I'm out of money)
I hate not being able to call people. But several times during the last few days, not having any credit has probably been a good thing.
That is, it's stopped me, say, ringing Stuart in the middle of the night. Which I am currently really wanting to do. But I'd wake the siblings.
If I still really need to talk to him when I go to bed (and it's not like, 4am), I'll call him.
Eh, fuck it, I am going to bed.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
... yeah.
The on-hover text is "This one makes me wince every time I think about it."
And I've had that conversation. But I'm having one at the moment which is going how it's meant to.
"I love you."
"I love you more."
"Nuh uh, I love you more."
...
... I love him more <3
Monday, October 15, 2007
From Post Secret blogspot
Scrolling through the postcards there, I found one that struck a very clear chord.
I love my Stuart.
I love my Stuart.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
I played you a song but I eated it... wait, no...
Welp, it's dodgy quality recording and out of tune piano, plus it's sideways because blogger doesn't seem to like portrait-oriented videos... but it's Moonlight Sonata nonetheless.
:)
:)
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Agh! Ninja Zombie Bug!
.oooO ...........
..(....).. Oooo...
...\..(......(....).
....\_)......)../..
............(_/..
Look, feet. They are cute :)
There's this freaking ninja zombie bug that won't die and it keeps sneaking around and then appearing right near my ear and buzzing REALLY loudly.
I swatted it with the relax segment of the Canberra Sunday Times, but about two minutes after it twitched and stopped moving it was up and going again.
I am armed with a rolled magazine.
Stay back!
Welp, I am too lazy to put up photos from Friday night so I'll just link to my bebo and everyone can look at them on there.
Bebo = Here (Click Now)
My neck is killing me.
I am avoiding like, six assignments by blobbing around online. I totally rearranged my bebo and followed links everywhere to all these random places and random people's bebos and probably crept them out majorly :P
Hum, what is there to say?
I have:
ToK Journal: Thursday
Drama minor prac. project: Friday
Drama essay: Friday
Psych. oral: Friday
English essay: Don't Know When
ToK oral: DKW
ToK essay: DKW
... seven.
D'=
And I like, haven't slept. In a bazillion years. (Minor exaggeration)
Hum-de-dum-de-dum.
Jess has promised me she will make me a blogskin. With swirly patterns like the one here. I am excited :)
I have html for various widgets that I want to have on my blog but don't want on the main page because they take too long to load if you're not interested in them. There are three or four of them.
Hrm...
I is silly. I is sitting and daydreaming about my boy. I loves him very much. He is sweet and kind and really lifts me up (both metaphorically and physically - evil boy keeps throwing me over his shoulder and making me giggle ^-^). He's always there when I need him, and he's funny and clever, and wonderful at music. And anyone who knows me knows that I adore musicians =p He puts up with my random episodes of anxiety or depression and doesn't complain, he just stays and helps me till I'm okay again, and I feel so much better so much more of the time now that I have him. We've been going out for three months and three days, and he is my world. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone or anything else, I trust him, I respect him, I appreciate him, and I always will. Hearts to my darling magician, Stuart. <3
Know who else is awesome?
Skye. :) Caitlin hearts her Skye-bunny <3
Skye is superful and the best friendy friend anyone could wish for *nod-nod* She sticks up for all her friends and - *random moment* I got the ninja zombie bug! I got it! WOOOOOO! - is absolutely hilarious. She has the most adorable laugh ever! Tee hee! It's like an evil leprechaun! It's cute, but scary :P Skye is superful, and will always be one of my bestest friends :)
Maddie-bear is also awesome :) She is totally my fiancée ;) and we are definitely going to get married one day :) She is my pen-pal during maths and the best story-writer ever (Spanish, albatross, milktruck!). Maddie is really fair and non-judgemental and she'll always look out for people she likes, and sometimes for those she doesn't. She's one of the kindest people I know, and will also always be one of my best friends :)
Jess-poo/Jess-pie! Whee! ACRONYM BUDDIES! JAIATBAMUATWTOMSN. WNROORTTMAF, AIANGOT"SDIWDYAIAT"O!
(Jess and I are the best at making up acronyms to waste time on MSN. We never run out of retarded things to make acronyms for, and I am never getting over that "Some Day I Will Do Your Aunt In A Truck" one!)
Jess is awesome and clever and funny and the bestest at making blogs ^-^ She has yet to come to any of our parties, though! We must simply kidnap her and drag her along to get trashed sometime :P Caiti-pie Hearts Jess-poo For Ever <3
More awesome people that I am too tired to write reasons-for-awesomeness for include:
Ryan
Mandy
Zoe
Tallulah
Freya and her friends
Becky
Izzy
Grace (underwear buddy!)
Kelly (best sister-of-boyfriend ever ^-^)
and probably a whole bunch of other people who have slipped my mind for now because my head is killing me and I'm sleep-deprived.
Caitlin loves you all, because you are all awesome :)
And now, I think it is time to crash.
Nighty nights :)
..(....).. Oooo...
...\..(......(....).
....\_)......)../..
............(_/..
Look, feet. They are cute :)
There's this freaking ninja zombie bug that won't die and it keeps sneaking around and then appearing right near my ear and buzzing REALLY loudly.
I swatted it with the relax segment of the Canberra Sunday Times, but about two minutes after it twitched and stopped moving it was up and going again.
I am armed with a rolled magazine.
Stay back!
Welp, I am too lazy to put up photos from Friday night so I'll just link to my bebo and everyone can look at them on there.
Bebo = Here (Click Now)
My neck is killing me.
I am avoiding like, six assignments by blobbing around online. I totally rearranged my bebo and followed links everywhere to all these random places and random people's bebos and probably crept them out majorly :P
Hum, what is there to say?
I have:
ToK Journal: Thursday
Drama minor prac. project: Friday
Drama essay: Friday
Psych. oral: Friday
English essay: Don't Know When
ToK oral: DKW
ToK essay: DKW
... seven.
D'=
And I like, haven't slept. In a bazillion years. (Minor exaggeration)
Hum-de-dum-de-dum.
Jess has promised me she will make me a blogskin. With swirly patterns like the one here. I am excited :)
I have html for various widgets that I want to have on my blog but don't want on the main page because they take too long to load if you're not interested in them. There are three or four of them.
Hrm...
I is silly. I is sitting and daydreaming about my boy. I loves him very much. He is sweet and kind and really lifts me up (both metaphorically and physically - evil boy keeps throwing me over his shoulder and making me giggle ^-^). He's always there when I need him, and he's funny and clever, and wonderful at music. And anyone who knows me knows that I adore musicians =p He puts up with my random episodes of anxiety or depression and doesn't complain, he just stays and helps me till I'm okay again, and I feel so much better so much more of the time now that I have him. We've been going out for three months and three days, and he is my world. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone or anything else, I trust him, I respect him, I appreciate him, and I always will. Hearts to my darling magician, Stuart. <3
Know who else is awesome?
Skye. :) Caitlin hearts her Skye-bunny <3
Skye is superful and the best friendy friend anyone could wish for *nod-nod* She sticks up for all her friends and - *random moment* I got the ninja zombie bug! I got it! WOOOOOO! - is absolutely hilarious. She has the most adorable laugh ever! Tee hee! It's like an evil leprechaun! It's cute, but scary :P Skye is superful, and will always be one of my bestest friends :)
Maddie-bear is also awesome :) She is totally my fiancée ;) and we are definitely going to get married one day :) She is my pen-pal during maths and the best story-writer ever (Spanish, albatross, milktruck!). Maddie is really fair and non-judgemental and she'll always look out for people she likes, and sometimes for those she doesn't. She's one of the kindest people I know, and will also always be one of my best friends :)
Jess-poo/Jess-pie! Whee! ACRONYM BUDDIES! JAIATBAMUATWTOMSN. WNROORTTMAF, AIANGOT"SDIWDYAIAT"O!
(Jess and I are the best at making up acronyms to waste time on MSN. We never run out of retarded things to make acronyms for, and I am never getting over that "Some Day I Will Do Your Aunt In A Truck" one!)
Jess is awesome and clever and funny and the bestest at making blogs ^-^ She has yet to come to any of our parties, though! We must simply kidnap her and drag her along to get trashed sometime :P Caiti-pie Hearts Jess-poo For Ever <3
More awesome people that I am too tired to write reasons-for-awesomeness for include:
Ryan
Mandy
Zoe
Tallulah
Freya and her friends
Becky
Izzy
Grace (underwear buddy!)
Kelly (best sister-of-boyfriend ever ^-^)
and probably a whole bunch of other people who have slipped my mind for now because my head is killing me and I'm sleep-deprived.
Caitlin loves you all, because you are all awesome :)
And now, I think it is time to crash.
Nighty nights :)
Sunday, September 02, 2007
zzzz: Limited Edition, Extended Version. *Only Available Online!*
This may be a bit rambly and/or distracted.
Why?
Because I have slept six hours since Friday morning.
I am a wreck.
But a very happy one.
I spent forty hours straight with my boy over the weekend :)
Friday night had a party, and that was super. Apart from Kelly being sick and emo kid passing out multiple times, it was awesome. Everybody seems to have had a good time. I certainly enjoyed myself, which is rare for me at a party :P It was really awesome.
Who was there.... Hm...
Friday:
Me
Stuart
Hayley
Grace
Bailey
Kelly
Sarah
Kathryn
Skye-bunny
Maddie-bear
Tallulah
Ellie
Keith
Hobbit
Jared/however his name is spelt/Filby-guy.
Emo Kid/Brendan
Two emo looking people whose names I don't know.
Heff
Heff's housemate Jimmy
A lady whose name I don't know who seemed to be somewhat attached to Jimmy
John
Ash
Kind of in order of arrival, but more in order of who left last (and thus who I remember most).
Those who stayed for Saturday night:
Me
Stuart
Kelly
Grace
Hayley
Bailey
John
And then Ash came back later in the night, and so did Keith and Hobbit.
Hayley drank too much on Saturday, but at least she wasn't as bad as Kelly was on Friday night >.>
I have photos on my bebo, I'll get around to moving them into my photobucket and then either linking that or posting them on here some other time. I'm out of time now.
Course, if you have my bebo you can see them on there.
Nap time.
Dead Caitlin.
Why?
Because I have slept six hours since Friday morning.
I am a wreck.
But a very happy one.
I spent forty hours straight with my boy over the weekend :)
Friday night had a party, and that was super. Apart from Kelly being sick and emo kid passing out multiple times, it was awesome. Everybody seems to have had a good time. I certainly enjoyed myself, which is rare for me at a party :P It was really awesome.
Who was there.... Hm...
Friday:
Me
Stuart
Hayley
Grace
Bailey
Kelly
Sarah
Kathryn
Skye-bunny
Maddie-bear
Tallulah
Ellie
Keith
Hobbit
Jared/however his name is spelt/Filby-guy.
Emo Kid/Brendan
Two emo looking people whose names I don't know.
Heff
Heff's housemate Jimmy
A lady whose name I don't know who seemed to be somewhat attached to Jimmy
John
Ash
Kind of in order of arrival, but more in order of who left last (and thus who I remember most).
Those who stayed for Saturday night:
Me
Stuart
Kelly
Grace
Hayley
Bailey
John
And then Ash came back later in the night, and so did Keith and Hobbit.
Hayley drank too much on Saturday, but at least she wasn't as bad as Kelly was on Friday night >.>
I have photos on my bebo, I'll get around to moving them into my photobucket and then either linking that or posting them on here some other time. I'm out of time now.
Course, if you have my bebo you can see them on there.
Nap time.
Dead Caitlin.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Blogthings
| Your Love is Represented by a Purple Rose |
 For you, love is all about chemistry and attraction. You totally believe in love at first sight. If a relationship is right, you know it from the start. You're often sure of your feelings. And you're not afraid to express them. |
| Your Lucky Love Color is White |
 When someone gets to know you, they still feel like you're a mystery to them. You are innocent and a bit naive. But you are a little more savvy than you seem, especially in love. And unlike what your color might suggest, you aren't too much of a prude. Your heart is pure, and you find it easy to fall in love. |
| You Are Best Described By... |
 The Starry Night by Vincent van Gogh |
Yay?
| You Should Wear Peach Lipstick |
 Clean, fresh, and simply pretty. Your look: Natural Beauty Your signature lip gloss flavor: Peach |
Maddie is drawing on her jeans. Silly Maddie.
Floral Feet
It is psychology.
Caitlin is bored and not doing work.
My chair is too high and I can't reach the keyboard. I also can't reach the ground. I am a midget.
Now I can reach the ground but I still can't reach the keyboard.
I'm not wearing shoes ^-^ I feel like a free-spirited hippie because I'm sitting in a computer lab with bare feet ^-^
Maddie dreweded a flower on my foot :)
School is boring.
I had vita brits for breakfast this morning :)
Blargh. Everything is too boring to talk about :P
We're going on a mad cycling trek around random parts of Victoria these coming holidays. In the first week. And and and it should be fun. Hopefully. Boy has expressed interest in being kidnapped and cycling with us. Plus cousin-family are coming, and possibly a family that they're friends with as well. And I should be able to go say hi to my friends who live there ^_^
And the parents say we might be able to get a puppy when we get back :) I want a border collie because they're absolutely adorable. They are friendly and snuggly and cute. Like my boy ^_^ But with fur and a tail.
I want to draw more flowers on my feet, now. But it would probably look like I had some weird foot disease >.>
We went over to Eddison Park for lunch yesterday because it was nice and sunny. I lay in the grass and absorbed heat. And then I stayed there for the second half of line three, which was bad of me because I was meant to go to English, but oh well, it was worth it. Except now my arms are really really itchy. I think it's from the grass :(
Hrm... I can think of nothing to do. Blargh.
It's getting into summer, woo ^_^ I lovesies the summerness. Course, technically it's not even spring yet, but the weather is so nice ^_^ It's loverly loverly loverly. I can't wait for it to get properly warm so I can go swimming lots. I like swimming, it makes me happy happy ^_^
BLARGH
I have thirty-five minutes of class left. Maybe I should work on my speech thing. Or my drama essay. Or read my thingy ma jiggit for ToK. Or perhaps get the English essay topic of Maddie-bear. I missed getting it when I didn't go yesterday :( And we're going to get topics for ToK orals soon :(
Apparenlty I am now Stulinbutt. Because Maddie and Skye call Stuart Stubutt (because they are... odd). And now they have decided that Caitlin + Stubutt = Stulinbutt. Apparently we are now one entity.
...
Peculiar people. Ah well :)
Blargle blargle blarg. Jess needs to update more often. She needs to spend her classtime writing blogs instead of working, yuss yuss. Like I did in year ten :)
Course, I didn't do too well in year ten. Psh =p
Anyvays. I shall now proceed to find some new way to entertain myself and avoid working. Too-ra :)
Caitlin is bored and not doing work.
My chair is too high and I can't reach the keyboard. I also can't reach the ground. I am a midget.
Now I can reach the ground but I still can't reach the keyboard.
I'm not wearing shoes ^-^ I feel like a free-spirited hippie because I'm sitting in a computer lab with bare feet ^-^
Maddie dreweded a flower on my foot :)
School is boring.
I had vita brits for breakfast this morning :)
Blargh. Everything is too boring to talk about :P
We're going on a mad cycling trek around random parts of Victoria these coming holidays. In the first week. And and and it should be fun. Hopefully. Boy has expressed interest in being kidnapped and cycling with us. Plus cousin-family are coming, and possibly a family that they're friends with as well. And I should be able to go say hi to my friends who live there ^_^
And the parents say we might be able to get a puppy when we get back :) I want a border collie because they're absolutely adorable. They are friendly and snuggly and cute. Like my boy ^_^ But with fur and a tail.
I want to draw more flowers on my feet, now. But it would probably look like I had some weird foot disease >.>
We went over to Eddison Park for lunch yesterday because it was nice and sunny. I lay in the grass and absorbed heat. And then I stayed there for the second half of line three, which was bad of me because I was meant to go to English, but oh well, it was worth it. Except now my arms are really really itchy. I think it's from the grass :(
Hrm... I can think of nothing to do. Blargh.
It's getting into summer, woo ^_^ I lovesies the summerness. Course, technically it's not even spring yet, but the weather is so nice ^_^ It's loverly loverly loverly. I can't wait for it to get properly warm so I can go swimming lots. I like swimming, it makes me happy happy ^_^
BLARGH
I have thirty-five minutes of class left. Maybe I should work on my speech thing. Or my drama essay. Or read my thingy ma jiggit for ToK. Or perhaps get the English essay topic of Maddie-bear. I missed getting it when I didn't go yesterday :( And we're going to get topics for ToK orals soon :(
Apparenlty I am now Stulinbutt. Because Maddie and Skye call Stuart Stubutt (because they are... odd). And now they have decided that Caitlin + Stubutt = Stulinbutt. Apparently we are now one entity.
...
Peculiar people. Ah well :)
Blargle blargle blarg. Jess needs to update more often. She needs to spend her classtime writing blogs instead of working, yuss yuss. Like I did in year ten :)
Course, I didn't do too well in year ten. Psh =p
Anyvays. I shall now proceed to find some new way to entertain myself and avoid working. Too-ra :)
Friday, August 17, 2007
Oh Moi Fawking Gawd. 200 Questions.
200. My middle name is: Rose. Laugh and I kill you.
199. I was born : True.
198. I am really: Inedible.
197. My cell phone company is: Phone = nokia. Provider = Telstra. As soon as I can change it I will.
196. My eye color is: Pale green, apparently. I have no idea.
195. My shoe size is: 9
194. My ring size is: 8.
193. My height is: 168cm. About 5'5".
192. I'm allergic to: You.
191. I was born in: A hospital that was blown up later. They realised their mistake.
190. I live in: A triangular bubble/cardboard box on the side of the road with Skye and Jess.
189. The last book I read: The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime (again). Before that, the last Harry Potter book. Before that, The Day of the Tryffids.
188. My bed is: Kind of broken, far too prone too creaking, and a bit of a mess at the moment.
187: One thing you hate about yourself: ... that I can't get away from me.
179. My favorite holiday is: The longest and warmest one, that also includes my birthday. i.e, Christmas.
178. The perfect kiss is: from my beautiful boy.
177. The last three cd's I bought are: Bought? Like, with money? God, I don't think I've ever done that...
176. Last song that made me cry was: Better Than Me - Hinder. Oh yes, I am very lame indeed.
175. Are you single or taken: Taken. Very much so. And planning to stay that way as long as I can.
174. If your taken, by whom? The most wonderful boy I have ever known. Stuart.
173. Do you like being single/taken?: Hazard a guess here =P
170. What did you do yesterday?: Hm.... sat on the computer for a while, had a reeeeaallly long shower, went out and saw the Simpsons movie with my magician boy... stuff.
:::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::
142. Love at first sight? Nuh uh. Appearances are too deceiving. Perhaps at first conversation or first date.
141. Luck? Mm, occasionally.
140. Fate? Meh, dunno.
139. Yourself? Rarely.
138. Aliens? I dunno. Bluh, don't care, either.
137. Heaven? Nup.
136. Hell? Even less than heaven.
134. Horoscopes? Not really, though I do read them.
133. Soulmates? Mine is Ralph Wiggum.
:::Which is Better?:::
129. Hugs or Kisses?: Hugs. With kisses.
128. Drunk or High: I've only been drunk, but I get called stoned more than I get called drunk. Honestly, though. Just because I'm trying to fly, doesn't mean I'm on drugs. I'm just like that.
127. Phone or Online: Depends who.
126. Red heads or Black hair: Meh, black I suppose.
125. Blondes or brunettes: Brunettes to the max.
124. Hot or cold: Hot.
123. Summer or winter: Summer. I need my solar energy.
121. Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla.
120. Night or Day: Night. Mmm, sparklies.
119. Oranges or Apples: Apples.
118. Curly or Straight hair: Straight
:::Here's What I Think About::: ..
116. Abortion: I'll try not to start ranting and raving about quality over quantity of life, and keep it simple. If a child is going to be born into a family that doesn't want it, or can't support it, and is going to suffer and cause suffering in the long term, abortion is definitely acceptable. Pro choice. Nobody is forcing "pro lifers" to have abortions, but they're pushing for the choice to be taken away.
115. Backstabbers: They'll get paid back eventually.
114. Parents: *dies*. Nah, mine are pretty damn awesome.
::: Last time I:::
103. Kissed someone: Hm... what time is it... 9.09pm... about four hours ago? Three and a half?
102. Had food: No idea. Dessert, whenever that was.
101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: I don't know.
100. Cried in front of someone: ... about four hours ago. Or three and a half. Same as 103.
99. Grew: Too long ago, gr...
:::MISC:::
90. Who is the ditziest person you know: ... me. ^-^
89. Who makes you laugh the most: Argh, multiple people! Right now, Jess. We're making WEIRD acronyms (Some Day I'll Do Your Aunt In A Truck - best one so far)
87. The last movie I saw: Simpsons.
82. What I don't understand is: Me.
80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: "Dot dot dot"
76. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My family, my room, the view.
75. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Probably next holidays... maybe next party. Maybe getting all my work done, like that's ever going to happen.
74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: Next week's multitude of tests.
73. Tomorrow: Might make today okay.
72. Today: May be redeemed by tomorrow.
71. Next Summer? Should be pretty damn cool.
70. Next Week: is going to kill me.
67. People call me: Alcoholic, ditzy, Caitylin... ODDBALL!! ^_^
62. The person who knows the most about me is: Stuart.
60. The most difficult thing to do is: Either laugh or not laugh, depending on the situation.
59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Thankfully, no.
56. My zodiac sign is: Aquarius
55. The first person I talked to today was: Mother, whilst bopping her with a pillow to try and stop her making me get out of bed.
54. First time you had a crush: Dunno, don't care.
53. The one person who I can't hide things from: I can hide things from everyone.
52. Last time someone said something you were thinking?: Stuart, this evening. I can't remember what it was, though.
51. Right now I am talking to: Myself, a small wooden chair, and Jess.
50. What is your dream job? I dunno. Wouldn't mind getting paid to sleep.
49. First job?: Haven't got one yet ^^;
48. I have/will get a job at: *whistles*
47. I have these pets: None, pout.
46. I hope: when I allow myself to - rarely.
45. The worst sound in the world: Music being played badly/my two youngest siblings arguing loudly.
44. The person that makes me cry the most is: Me.
39. My boy/girlfriend is: absolutely incredible. What makes me glad to be alive. The reason I can keep smiling (most of the time) even when everything else is crap. My world. My everything. My darling magician. And, most of all, loved like crazy.
35. Florida or Hawaii: ... no idea? Hawaii?
33. My favorite piece of clothing: Bangles! They are SO an item of clothing! *hugs bangles* I dunno... my hippie skirt :)
32. My favorite sport is: ... exercise? Me? I think you're confused.
30. My friends are: The best people in the world - Skye, Ryan, Maddie, Amy, Jess, Izzy, Becky, Tallulah, Hayley, Mandy, and of course, my Stuart boy. Kelly, too, if I'm allowed to count her.
29. My computer is: The most fucked up piece of shit ever. A seven year old iMac. :'(
28. The school I went to is: Went to? Go to. One with teachers and students and poor attempts at communication between the two.
27. Last person I got mad at: Maddie, for pinching my bum too hard.
22. The all-time best movie is: Monty Python and the Holy Grail.
21. The all-time best thing in the world is: Being with my friends/boy.
18. The most annoying person you know is: Me or Bridie.
17. I lose all respect for people who: Discriminate or judge.
16. The movies I have cried at are: None. I don't do crying at movies.
15. 5 Closest friends Name(s): Skye, Maddie, Ryan, Amy maybe, if she came back and sat with us, and Stuart. Not in order at all. Jess might even replace Amy there. Even though I don't see her so much now. Jess = über-awesome. :)
14. TV channels you watch: ABC, Ten.
13. Favorite web site: http://xkcd.com// or www.questionablecontent.net
12. I want to be: Able to fly.
11. The worst pain I was ever in was: Not your business.
10. My favorite word/s: Potato, marmoset, mongoose, moose, antelope, cheese, pineapple, roller-skates, tablecloth, spatula, Mongolian, gazebo, walrus, telekineserise, spontaneous combustion, and PLASTICALIBUR!!
9. My room is: The biggest mess evarrr. Representative of me in every way.
5. My weakness is: Finding too many of said weaknesses.
4. What I like about the opposite sex is: *immature sniggering goes here*
3.Who broke your heart: Someone no longer worth talking about.
2. One thing that makes you feel great is: Having all the friends together and giggling.
1. I filled out 200 Questions because: What else am I supposed to do with only one person online? Also I needed an update. ^-^
199. I was born : True.
198. I am really: Inedible.
197. My cell phone company is: Phone = nokia. Provider = Telstra. As soon as I can change it I will.
196. My eye color is: Pale green, apparently. I have no idea.
195. My shoe size is: 9
194. My ring size is: 8.
193. My height is: 168cm. About 5'5".
192. I'm allergic to: You.
191. I was born in: A hospital that was blown up later. They realised their mistake.
190. I live in: A triangular bubble/cardboard box on the side of the road with Skye and Jess.
189. The last book I read: The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime (again). Before that, the last Harry Potter book. Before that, The Day of the Tryffids.
188. My bed is: Kind of broken, far too prone too creaking, and a bit of a mess at the moment.
187: One thing you hate about yourself: ... that I can't get away from me.
179. My favorite holiday is: The longest and warmest one, that also includes my birthday. i.e, Christmas.
178. The perfect kiss is: from my beautiful boy.
177. The last three cd's I bought are: Bought? Like, with money? God, I don't think I've ever done that...
176. Last song that made me cry was: Better Than Me - Hinder. Oh yes, I am very lame indeed.
175. Are you single or taken: Taken. Very much so. And planning to stay that way as long as I can.
174. If your taken, by whom? The most wonderful boy I have ever known. Stuart.
173. Do you like being single/taken?: Hazard a guess here =P
170. What did you do yesterday?: Hm.... sat on the computer for a while, had a reeeeaallly long shower, went out and saw the Simpsons movie with my magician boy... stuff.
:::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::
142. Love at first sight? Nuh uh. Appearances are too deceiving. Perhaps at first conversation or first date.
141. Luck? Mm, occasionally.
140. Fate? Meh, dunno.
139. Yourself? Rarely.
138. Aliens? I dunno. Bluh, don't care, either.
137. Heaven? Nup.
136. Hell? Even less than heaven.
134. Horoscopes? Not really, though I do read them.
133. Soulmates? Mine is Ralph Wiggum.
:::Which is Better?:::
129. Hugs or Kisses?: Hugs. With kisses.
128. Drunk or High: I've only been drunk, but I get called stoned more than I get called drunk. Honestly, though. Just because I'm trying to fly, doesn't mean I'm on drugs. I'm just like that.
127. Phone or Online: Depends who.
126. Red heads or Black hair: Meh, black I suppose.
125. Blondes or brunettes: Brunettes to the max.
124. Hot or cold: Hot.
123. Summer or winter: Summer. I need my solar energy.
121. Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla.
120. Night or Day: Night. Mmm, sparklies.
119. Oranges or Apples: Apples.
118. Curly or Straight hair: Straight
:::Here's What I Think About::: ..
116. Abortion: I'll try not to start ranting and raving about quality over quantity of life, and keep it simple. If a child is going to be born into a family that doesn't want it, or can't support it, and is going to suffer and cause suffering in the long term, abortion is definitely acceptable. Pro choice. Nobody is forcing "pro lifers" to have abortions, but they're pushing for the choice to be taken away.
115. Backstabbers: They'll get paid back eventually.
114. Parents: *dies*. Nah, mine are pretty damn awesome.
::: Last time I:::
103. Kissed someone: Hm... what time is it... 9.09pm... about four hours ago? Three and a half?
102. Had food: No idea. Dessert, whenever that was.
101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: I don't know.
100. Cried in front of someone: ... about four hours ago. Or three and a half. Same as 103.
99. Grew: Too long ago, gr...
:::MISC:::
90. Who is the ditziest person you know: ... me. ^-^
89. Who makes you laugh the most: Argh, multiple people! Right now, Jess. We're making WEIRD acronyms (Some Day I'll Do Your Aunt In A Truck - best one so far)
87. The last movie I saw: Simpsons.
82. What I don't understand is: Me.
80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: "Dot dot dot"
76. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My family, my room, the view.
75. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Probably next holidays... maybe next party. Maybe getting all my work done, like that's ever going to happen.
74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: Next week's multitude of tests.
73. Tomorrow: Might make today okay.
72. Today: May be redeemed by tomorrow.
71. Next Summer? Should be pretty damn cool.
70. Next Week: is going to kill me.
67. People call me: Alcoholic, ditzy, Caitylin... ODDBALL!! ^_^
62. The person who knows the most about me is: Stuart.
60. The most difficult thing to do is: Either laugh or not laugh, depending on the situation.
59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Thankfully, no.
56. My zodiac sign is: Aquarius
55. The first person I talked to today was: Mother, whilst bopping her with a pillow to try and stop her making me get out of bed.
54. First time you had a crush: Dunno, don't care.
53. The one person who I can't hide things from: I can hide things from everyone.
52. Last time someone said something you were thinking?: Stuart, this evening. I can't remember what it was, though.
51. Right now I am talking to: Myself, a small wooden chair, and Jess.
50. What is your dream job? I dunno. Wouldn't mind getting paid to sleep.
49. First job?: Haven't got one yet ^^;
48. I have/will get a job at: *whistles*
47. I have these pets: None, pout.
46. I hope: when I allow myself to - rarely.
45. The worst sound in the world: Music being played badly/my two youngest siblings arguing loudly.
44. The person that makes me cry the most is: Me.
39. My boy/girlfriend is: absolutely incredible. What makes me glad to be alive. The reason I can keep smiling (most of the time) even when everything else is crap. My world. My everything. My darling magician. And, most of all, loved like crazy.
35. Florida or Hawaii: ... no idea? Hawaii?
33. My favorite piece of clothing: Bangles! They are SO an item of clothing! *hugs bangles* I dunno... my hippie skirt :)
32. My favorite sport is: ... exercise? Me? I think you're confused.
30. My friends are: The best people in the world - Skye, Ryan, Maddie, Amy, Jess, Izzy, Becky, Tallulah, Hayley, Mandy, and of course, my Stuart boy. Kelly, too, if I'm allowed to count her.
29. My computer is: The most fucked up piece of shit ever. A seven year old iMac. :'(
28. The school I went to is: Went to? Go to. One with teachers and students and poor attempts at communication between the two.
27. Last person I got mad at: Maddie, for pinching my bum too hard.
22. The all-time best movie is: Monty Python and the Holy Grail.
21. The all-time best thing in the world is: Being with my friends/boy.
18. The most annoying person you know is: Me or Bridie.
17. I lose all respect for people who: Discriminate or judge.
16. The movies I have cried at are: None. I don't do crying at movies.
15. 5 Closest friends Name(s): Skye, Maddie, Ryan, Amy maybe, if she came back and sat with us, and Stuart. Not in order at all. Jess might even replace Amy there. Even though I don't see her so much now. Jess = über-awesome. :)
14. TV channels you watch: ABC, Ten.
13. Favorite web site: http://xkcd.com// or www.questionablecontent.net
12. I want to be: Able to fly.
11. The worst pain I was ever in was: Not your business.
10. My favorite word/s: Potato, marmoset, mongoose, moose, antelope, cheese, pineapple, roller-skates, tablecloth, spatula, Mongolian, gazebo, walrus, telekineserise, spontaneous combustion, and PLASTICALIBUR!!
9. My room is: The biggest mess evarrr. Representative of me in every way.
5. My weakness is: Finding too many of said weaknesses.
4. What I like about the opposite sex is: *immature sniggering goes here*
3.Who broke your heart: Someone no longer worth talking about.
2. One thing that makes you feel great is: Having all the friends together and giggling.
1. I filled out 200 Questions because: What else am I supposed to do with only one person online? Also I needed an update. ^-^
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