Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

(break and solo)

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Fired (Well, actually, I just didn't get a job I applied for...)

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Comfortably Numb

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
And She Was

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Kryptonite

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Miss You

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Love Should

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Beautiful World

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
21st Century

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
10am Automatic

WHAT IS 2+2?
Here Without You

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Won't Go Home Without You

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Slow Hands

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
My Friend Robot

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Zak & Sara (... multiple personalities?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
In My Arms

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Positively 4th Street

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Lips of an Angel (Erm... making out is a hobby/interest? Sadly one that I am failing to pursue right now :( )

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Monday (ahahahaha... crap)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
(Baby I've Got You) On My Mind (Hey, that's no secret =\ )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Come Away With Me

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Fired

Jack Black Caused The Extinction Of The Dinosaurs (And Is A Terrible Actor, Which Is Nearly As Bad)

Oh my god, could it be, anything but that, no, not...
an update!

(Dun dun dun)
(Dramatic reverb + token crushing of native and gratuitous display of flesh)

I have double tea.
Two tea bags, twice as much milk, and twice as much sugar as normal people.
Because water is the boring part of tea.

As anyone pondering upon this will no doubt have surmised, I am procrastinating.
Psychology essay.
Also ToK essay.

What I have so far for my psych. one:
"Constructive memory" - rather than reconstructing & telling what happened, parts of or whole memories are constructed. This may be due to what we "know" should have happened (social sensibilities), suggestions (often unintentional) about details, or post-event acquisition of knowledge ("That guy was a serial killer" = "Yes, I definitely remember him carrying a gun")
- Only recall bits and pieces => invent links that make sense
- *retrieval cues* too broad => memories mix (three different visits to the park become one, for example, or a dream about a park and a general concept of what should happen at parks are mixed in)
- suggestion => "When the man and woman *crashed* into each other, how fast were they going? "Crash" makes people imagine that they must have been going quickly to 'crash' when in reality they may just have bumped while moving slowly. This is why 'leading questions' are not allowed from lawyers to witnesses in court trials.

Is okay so far? Considering that's just notes and vague outlines, yes?

I'm also checking out (vaguely) the general state of society in 1933 New York.
No reason :)
Apart from it being kind of useful in our English oral =P

We're discussing King Kong being a classic of the speculative fiction genre, and we need context. So context is my researching job tonight.
What we learned from watching the 2005 King Kong was that Jack Black cannot act.
Also his character is a nasty, nasty man.
He caused the extinction of the dinosaurs and the death of the only Sensitive New Aged Gorilla to ever exist - King Kong.
It was very heart-rending.
Especially how Sexy Beast Kong's death was so drawn out :(

I drew a picture.
It's slightly confusing.
And on the side I wrote:
Thoughts are not an effective hiding place.
Big words don't protect you.
You can't chase people away forever.
Sooner or later,
you're going to have to
let someone in.
I'm not even sure who I was thinking of. Possibly me. I tend to argue using unnecessarily long and complex words. I figure, if they don't understand me, their dislike can be brushed off as ignorance. I can always claim, if backed into a corner, that there was a linguistic misunderstanding, and somehow I am still right.
I have a problem with hiding in amongst my thoughts. I feel like a goldfish trying to hide in a tacky plastic seaweed.
I can claim to be thinking and being philosophical, when in reality my thoughts are flimsy and shallow. Caitlin = goldfish, thoughts = plastic seaweed.
I tend to argue with people as my first mode of defence. If I'm worried someone won't like me, I'll be rude to them.
The only way for me to feel confident is to push the needs and feelings of others out of my head until after I've got through a situation.
And then I feel horrible, and nobody has really interacted with me at all, making the whole bullshit process redundant.

I've been feeling odd over the past week or two.
Bad odd.
I realised I haven't been writing in my diary. Or on here. Instead I've been spilling to Stuart. I'm sure he's tiring of it. Perhaps writing here or trying to keep up the diarying will direct some of my whining away from him. He's a beautifully patient and tolerant person, but I'm terrified I'll push him to the point where he can't take any more of me.
He was upset about something today, and wouldn't tell me what it was. He wouldn't talk about it, and somehow that made me sad. Most of it was, "There's something so wrong he won't talk about it?" kind of worrying. But part of it was, "I tell you everything, I try to explain my actions and feelings to show you it's not you that makes me get upset like I do, and you can't trust me in return to tell me what's upsetting you"... in not telling me what the matter was, I guess he wasn't showing me that it wasn't my fault, which is all I would have needed short term. Very short term. Five minutes after that reassurance I would be worrying away again. I'm worrying terribly now...
I worry very much about my friends and the people I love.
I want to have them all in sight so that I can stop any harm coming to them.

Me and Maddie and Skye were talking last night, about how, if Skye and Luke were in an open relationship, and Luke went off and tried new things and then came back to Skye, she would know that they had something more than anything else they could find.
I sort of realised, that I can't let anyone go, not even for a moment, for fear that they won't come back. I need an emotional stranglehold on everyone around me, like a leash, I can't bear to see people leaving, even if it's only briefly.
So sometimes I get controlling. Stuart darling, if you wind up reading this, I'm sorry for clinging so much and not wanting to let you go ever, maybe this pondering is making some sense out of it.
I sometimes feel like I'm unintentionally being manipulative. Or that it might seem that way. And those times are the times where I insist that I am fine, or that I am too dignified/proud to cry in public, and ignore things that normally make me break down.
I wonder what other people wonder. I wonder how I might describe myself. I seem very contradictory.
Manipulative and sometimes naïve; childish and cynical; slightly tired of everything but curious about most other stuff. Often withdrawn but hyperactive. Stupid and nerdy. I don't really make a whole lot of sense.

Mlarp.

I'm out of credit (I'm out of money)
I hate not being able to call people. But several times during the last few days, not having any credit has probably been a good thing.
That is, it's stopped me, say, ringing Stuart in the middle of the night. Which I am currently really wanting to do. But I'd wake the siblings.
If I still really need to talk to him when I go to bed (and it's not like, 4am), I'll call him.

Eh, fuck it, I am going to bed.

... yeah.

The on-hover text is "This one makes me wince every time I think about it."
And I've had that conversation. But I'm having one at the moment which is going how it's meant to.
"I love you."
"I love you more."
"Nuh uh, I love you more."

...
... I love him more <3

From Post Secret blogspot

Scrolling through the postcards there, I found one that struck a very clear chord.


I love my Stuart.

I played you a song but I eated it... wait, no...

Welp, it's dodgy quality recording and out of tune piano, plus it's sideways because blogger doesn't seem to like portrait-oriented videos... but it's Moonlight Sonata nonetheless.
:)

Had to share this =P

Isn't Biff adorable? ^-^

Agh! Ninja Zombie Bug!

.oooO ...........
..(....).. Oooo...
...\..(......(....).
....\_)......)../..
............(_/..

Look, feet. They are cute :)


There's this freaking ninja zombie bug that won't die and it keeps sneaking around and then appearing right near my ear and buzzing REALLY loudly.
I swatted it with the relax segment of the Canberra Sunday Times, but about two minutes after it twitched and stopped moving it was up and going again.
I am armed with a rolled magazine.
Stay back!

Welp, I am too lazy to put up photos from Friday night so I'll just link to my bebo and everyone can look at them on there.
Bebo = Here (Click Now)

My neck is killing me.

I am avoiding like, six assignments by blobbing around online. I totally rearranged my bebo and followed links everywhere to all these random places and random people's bebos and probably crept them out majorly :P

Hum, what is there to say?
I have:
ToK Journal: Thursday
Drama minor prac. project: Friday
Drama essay: Friday
Psych. oral: Friday
English essay: Don't Know When
ToK oral: DKW
ToK essay: DKW

... seven.
D'=

And I like, haven't slept. In a bazillion years. (Minor exaggeration)

Hum-de-dum-de-dum.
Jess has promised me she will make me a blogskin. With swirly patterns like the one here. I am excited :)
I have html for various widgets that I want to have on my blog but don't want on the main page because they take too long to load if you're not interested in them. There are three or four of them.

Hrm...
I is silly. I is sitting and daydreaming about my boy. I loves him very much. He is sweet and kind and really lifts me up (both metaphorically and physically - evil boy keeps throwing me over his shoulder and making me giggle ^-^). He's always there when I need him, and he's funny and clever, and wonderful at music. And anyone who knows me knows that I adore musicians =p He puts up with my random episodes of anxiety or depression and doesn't complain, he just stays and helps me till I'm okay again, and I feel so much better so much more of the time now that I have him. We've been going out for three months and three days, and he is my world. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone or anything else, I trust him, I respect him, I appreciate him, and I always will. Hearts to my darling magician, Stuart. <3

Know who else is awesome?
Skye. :) Caitlin hearts her Skye-bunny <3
Skye is superful and the best friendy friend anyone could wish for *nod-nod* She sticks up for all her friends and - *random moment* I got the ninja zombie bug! I got it! WOOOOOO! - is absolutely hilarious. She has the most adorable laugh ever! Tee hee! It's like an evil leprechaun! It's cute, but scary :P Skye is superful, and will always be one of my bestest friends :)

Maddie-bear is also awesome :) She is totally my fiancée ;) and we are definitely going to get married one day :) She is my pen-pal during maths and the best story-writer ever (Spanish, albatross, milktruck!). Maddie is really fair and non-judgemental and she'll always look out for people she likes, and sometimes for those she doesn't. She's one of the kindest people I know, and will also always be one of my best friends :)

Jess-poo/Jess-pie! Whee! ACRONYM BUDDIES! JAIATBAMUATWTOMSN. WNROORTTMAF, AIANGOT"SDIWDYAIAT"O!
(Jess and I are the best at making up acronyms to waste time on MSN. We never run out of retarded things to make acronyms for, and I am never getting over that "Some Day I Will Do Your Aunt In A Truck" one!)
Jess is awesome and clever and funny and the bestest at making blogs ^-^ She has yet to come to any of our parties, though! We must simply kidnap her and drag her along to get trashed sometime :P Caiti-pie Hearts Jess-poo For Ever <3

More awesome people that I am too tired to write reasons-for-awesomeness for include:
Ryan
Mandy
Zoe
Tallulah
Freya and her friends
Becky
Izzy
Grace (underwear buddy!)
Kelly (best sister-of-boyfriend ever ^-^)
and probably a whole bunch of other people who have slipped my mind for now because my head is killing me and I'm sleep-deprived.

Caitlin loves you all, because you are all awesome :)

And now, I think it is time to crash.

Nighty nights :)

zzzz: Limited Edition, Extended Version. *Only Available Online!*

This may be a bit rambly and/or distracted.
Why?
Because I have slept six hours since Friday morning.
I am a wreck.
But a very happy one.

I spent forty hours straight with my boy over the weekend :)
Friday night had a party, and that was super. Apart from Kelly being sick and emo kid passing out multiple times, it was awesome. Everybody seems to have had a good time. I certainly enjoyed myself, which is rare for me at a party :P It was really awesome.

Who was there.... Hm...
Friday:
Me
Stuart
Hayley
Grace
Bailey
Kelly
Sarah
Kathryn
Skye-bunny
Maddie-bear
Tallulah
Ellie
Keith
Hobbit
Jared/however his name is spelt/Filby-guy.
Emo Kid/Brendan
Two emo looking people whose names I don't know.
Heff
Heff's housemate Jimmy
A lady whose name I don't know who seemed to be somewhat attached to Jimmy
John
Ash

Kind of in order of arrival, but more in order of who left last (and thus who I remember most).
Those who stayed for Saturday night:
Me
Stuart
Kelly
Grace
Hayley
Bailey
John
And then Ash came back later in the night, and so did Keith and Hobbit.

Hayley drank too much on Saturday, but at least she wasn't as bad as Kelly was on Friday night >.>

I have photos on my bebo, I'll get around to moving them into my photobucket and then either linking that or posting them on here some other time. I'm out of time now.
Course, if you have my bebo you can see them on there.

Nap time.
Dead Caitlin.

zzzz

Blogthings

Your Love is Represented by a Purple Rose

For you, love is all about chemistry and attraction. You totally believe in love at first sight. If a relationship is right, you know it from the start. You're often sure of your feelings. And you're not afraid to express them.

What Rose Represents Your Love?

Your Lucky Love Color is White

When someone gets to know you, they still feel like you're a mystery to them. You are innocent and a bit naive. But you are a little more savvy than you seem, especially in love. And unlike what your color might suggest, you aren't too much of a prude. Your heart is pure, and you find it easy to fall in love.

What Does Your Lucky Love Color Tell Men?

You Are Best Described By...

The Starry Night by Vincent van Gogh

What Famous Work of Art Are You?

Yay?

You Should Wear Peach Lipstick

Clean, fresh, and simply pretty. Your look: Natural Beauty Your signature lip gloss flavor: Peach

What Shade of Lipstick Should You Wear?

Maddie is drawing on her jeans. Silly Maddie.

Floral Feet

It is psychology.
Caitlin is bored and not doing work.
My chair is too high and I can't reach the keyboard. I also can't reach the ground. I am a midget.

Now I can reach the ground but I still can't reach the keyboard.
I'm not wearing shoes ^-^ I feel like a free-spirited hippie because I'm sitting in a computer lab with bare feet ^-^
Maddie dreweded a flower on my foot :)
School is boring.
I had vita brits for breakfast this morning :)
Blargh. Everything is too boring to talk about :P

We're going on a mad cycling trek around random parts of Victoria these coming holidays. In the first week. And and and it should be fun. Hopefully. Boy has expressed interest in being kidnapped and cycling with us. Plus cousin-family are coming, and possibly a family that they're friends with as well. And I should be able to go say hi to my friends who live there ^_^
And the parents say we might be able to get a puppy when we get back :) I want a border collie because they're absolutely adorable. They are friendly and snuggly and cute. Like my boy ^_^ But with fur and a tail.

I want to draw more flowers on my feet, now. But it would probably look like I had some weird foot disease >.>

We went over to Eddison Park for lunch yesterday because it was nice and sunny. I lay in the grass and absorbed heat. And then I stayed there for the second half of line three, which was bad of me because I was meant to go to English, but oh well, it was worth it. Except now my arms are really really itchy. I think it's from the grass :(

Hrm... I can think of nothing to do. Blargh.

It's getting into summer, woo ^_^ I lovesies the summerness. Course, technically it's not even spring yet, but the weather is so nice ^_^ It's loverly loverly loverly. I can't wait for it to get properly warm so I can go swimming lots. I like swimming, it makes me happy happy ^_^

BLARGH

I have thirty-five minutes of class left. Maybe I should work on my speech thing. Or my drama essay. Or read my thingy ma jiggit for ToK. Or perhaps get the English essay topic of Maddie-bear. I missed getting it when I didn't go yesterday :( And we're going to get topics for ToK orals soon :(
Apparenlty I am now Stulinbutt. Because Maddie and Skye call Stuart Stubutt (because they are... odd). And now they have decided that Caitlin + Stubutt = Stulinbutt. Apparently we are now one entity.
...
Peculiar people. Ah well :)

Blargle blargle blarg. Jess needs to update more often. She needs to spend her classtime writing blogs instead of working, yuss yuss. Like I did in year ten :)
Course, I didn't do too well in year ten. Psh =p

Anyvays. I shall now proceed to find some new way to entertain myself and avoid working. Too-ra :)

Oh Moi Fawking Gawd. 200 Questions.

200. My middle name is: Rose. Laugh and I kill you.

199. I was born : True.

198. I am really: Inedible.

197. My cell phone company is: Phone = nokia. Provider = Telstra. As soon as I can change it I will.

196. My eye color is: Pale green, apparently. I have no idea.

195. My shoe size is: 9

194. My ring size is: 8.

193. My height is: 168cm. About 5'5".

192. I'm allergic to: You.

191. I was born in: A hospital that was blown up later. They realised their mistake.

190. I live in: A triangular bubble/cardboard box on the side of the road with Skye and Jess.

189. The last book I read: The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime (again). Before that, the last Harry Potter book. Before that, The Day of the Tryffids.

188. My bed is: Kind of broken, far too prone too creaking, and a bit of a mess at the moment.

187: One thing you hate about yourself: ... that I can't get away from me.

179. My favorite holiday is: The longest and warmest one, that also includes my birthday. i.e, Christmas.

178. The perfect kiss is: from my beautiful boy.

177. The last three cd's I bought are: Bought? Like, with money? God, I don't think I've ever done that...

176. Last song that made me cry was: Better Than Me - Hinder. Oh yes, I am very lame indeed.

175. Are you single or taken: Taken. Very much so. And planning to stay that way as long as I can.

174. If your taken, by whom? The most wonderful boy I have ever known. Stuart.

173. Do you like being single/taken?: Hazard a guess here =P

170. What did you do yesterday?: Hm.... sat on the computer for a while, had a reeeeaallly long shower, went out and saw the Simpsons movie with my magician boy... stuff.

:::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::

142. Love at first sight? Nuh uh. Appearances are too deceiving. Perhaps at first conversation or first date.

141. Luck? Mm, occasionally.

140. Fate? Meh, dunno.

139. Yourself? Rarely.

138. Aliens? I dunno. Bluh, don't care, either.

137. Heaven? Nup.

136. Hell? Even less than heaven.

134. Horoscopes? Not really, though I do read them.

133. Soulmates? Mine is Ralph Wiggum.

:::Which is Better?:::

129. Hugs or Kisses?: Hugs. With kisses.

128. Drunk or High: I've only been drunk, but I get called stoned more than I get called drunk. Honestly, though. Just because I'm trying to fly, doesn't mean I'm on drugs. I'm just like that.

127. Phone or Online: Depends who.

126. Red heads or Black hair: Meh, black I suppose.

125. Blondes or brunettes: Brunettes to the max.

124. Hot or cold: Hot.

123. Summer or winter: Summer. I need my solar energy.

121. Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla.

120. Night or Day: Night. Mmm, sparklies.

119. Oranges or Apples: Apples.

118. Curly or Straight hair: Straight

:::Here's What I Think About::: ..

116. Abortion: I'll try not to start ranting and raving about quality over quantity of life, and keep it simple. If a child is going to be born into a family that doesn't want it, or can't support it, and is going to suffer and cause suffering in the long term, abortion is definitely acceptable. Pro choice. Nobody is forcing "pro lifers" to have abortions, but they're pushing for the choice to be taken away.

115. Backstabbers: They'll get paid back eventually.

114. Parents: *dies*. Nah, mine are pretty damn awesome.

::: Last time I:::

103. Kissed someone: Hm... what time is it... 9.09pm... about four hours ago? Three and a half?

102. Had food: No idea. Dessert, whenever that was.

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: I don't know.

100. Cried in front of someone: ... about four hours ago. Or three and a half. Same as 103.

99. Grew: Too long ago, gr...

:::MISC:::

90. Who is the ditziest person you know: ... me. ^-^

89. Who makes you laugh the most: Argh, multiple people! Right now, Jess. We're making WEIRD acronyms (Some Day I'll Do Your Aunt In A Truck - best one so far)

87. The last movie I saw: Simpsons.

82. What I don't understand is: Me.

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: "Dot dot dot"

76. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My family, my room, the view.

75. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Probably next holidays... maybe next party. Maybe getting all my work done, like that's ever going to happen.

74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: Next week's multitude of tests.

73. Tomorrow: Might make today okay.

72. Today: May be redeemed by tomorrow.

71. Next Summer? Should be pretty damn cool.

70. Next Week: is going to kill me.

67. People call me: Alcoholic, ditzy, Caitylin... ODDBALL!! ^_^

62. The person who knows the most about me is: Stuart.

60. The most difficult thing to do is: Either laugh or not laugh, depending on the situation.

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Thankfully, no.

56. My zodiac sign is: Aquarius

55. The first person I talked to today was: Mother, whilst bopping her with a pillow to try and stop her making me get out of bed.

54. First time you had a crush: Dunno, don't care.

53. The one person who I can't hide things from: I can hide things from everyone.

52. Last time someone said something you were thinking?: Stuart, this evening. I can't remember what it was, though.

51. Right now I am talking to: Myself, a small wooden chair, and Jess.

50. What is your dream job? I dunno. Wouldn't mind getting paid to sleep.

49. First job?: Haven't got one yet ^^;

48. I have/will get a job at: *whistles*

47. I have these pets: None, pout.

46. I hope: when I allow myself to - rarely.

45. The worst sound in the world: Music being played badly/my two youngest siblings arguing loudly.

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: Me.

39. My boy/girlfriend is: absolutely incredible. What makes me glad to be alive. The reason I can keep smiling (most of the time) even when everything else is crap. My world. My everything. My darling magician. And, most of all, loved like crazy.

35. Florida or Hawaii: ... no idea? Hawaii?

33. My favorite piece of clothing: Bangles! They are SO an item of clothing! *hugs bangles* I dunno... my hippie skirt :)

32. My favorite sport is: ... exercise? Me? I think you're confused.

30. My friends are: The best people in the world - Skye, Ryan, Maddie, Amy, Jess, Izzy, Becky, Tallulah, Hayley, Mandy, and of course, my Stuart boy. Kelly, too, if I'm allowed to count her.

29. My computer is: The most fucked up piece of shit ever. A seven year old iMac. :'(

28. The school I went to is: Went to? Go to. One with teachers and students and poor attempts at communication between the two.

27. Last person I got mad at: Maddie, for pinching my bum too hard.

22. The all-time best movie is: Monty Python and the Holy Grail.

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: Being with my friends/boy.

18. The most annoying person you know is: Me or Bridie.

17. I lose all respect for people who: Discriminate or judge.

16. The movies I have cried at are: None. I don't do crying at movies.

15. 5 Closest friends Name(s): Skye, Maddie, Ryan, Amy maybe, if she came back and sat with us, and Stuart. Not in order at all. Jess might even replace Amy there. Even though I don't see her so much now. Jess = über-awesome. :)

14. TV channels you watch: ABC, Ten.

13. Favorite web site: http://xkcd.com// or www.questionablecontent.net

12. I want to be: Able to fly.

11. The worst pain I was ever in was: Not your business.

10. My favorite word/s: Potato, marmoset, mongoose, moose, antelope, cheese, pineapple, roller-skates, tablecloth, spatula, Mongolian, gazebo, walrus, telekineserise, spontaneous combustion, and PLASTICALIBUR!!

9. My room is: The biggest mess evarrr. Representative of me in every way.

5. My weakness is: Finding too many of said weaknesses.

4. What I like about the opposite sex is: *immature sniggering goes here*

3.Who broke your heart: Someone no longer worth talking about.

2. One thing that makes you feel great is: Having all the friends together and giggling.

1. I filled out 200 Questions because: What else am I supposed to do with only one person online? Also I needed an update. ^-^

I have done at least one constructive thing these holidays (so far)

And, I plan to do more. The constructive thing I've done so far, though, is make a bag :)
It's very pretty :)



The other things I plan to do are learn a new song on piano, and clean my room. If I manage to clean my room, I will upload photos as proof :P
But yes...
I am baby-sitting on this coming Wednesday, for some strangers who are going to give me a minimum of ten dollars an hour for eight hours. Rosalind baby-sits for them, but she's in the Blue Mountains on Wednesday, so they asked if she had any friends who could do it, so she rang me and I rang them and now I will have money.
So yay.
Anyway, hungriness.

"... I'm wearing a scarf!"

"I have something to tell you..."

Skye's party!
Woo!

I dunno, I needed to update with something and I figured Skye's party would be interesting enough.

Had an interesting time getting out there, to say the least. Stupid father and his refusal to listen to my directions. Got there eventually, mucked around dancing around in fairy wings, they had a really crappy piano that we were all playing, which was amusing. Mandy got super drunk super quickly, playing shot checkers against Luke. Maddie got super drunk but slower. Stuart came up to me at one point and said, very, very, seriously, "I have something to tell you...", and it made me worried. And then he said, "I'm wearing a scarf", and we both cracked up. It was a fun kind of party. I have photos. I'm sure the people in the photos don't want me sharing them, but I have photos. Tee hee hee.

I don't have time to upload them now, but I will do later.
Mwahah.

The reason why boys smell so funny.

Woo! Actual update!
I have not updated in ages, and happily, the reason for my not updating has changed from being sad and not wanting to talk to being happy but considerably busier. :)
So-so-so, this week/last weekend:
Last weekend was awesome, because it was a long weekend.
On Friday, Bailey-guy had a movie night, which was fun. I only went because Stuart invited me. I don't really know Bailey that well. But yeah, it was me and Stuart, and Mandy and Steven, and then there were Kim and Bailey sitting on the couch looking awkward (two couples and then two singles). And we watched team America and some Highlander type movies I wasn't paying attention to. Hehe...
Then on Saturday night I went out ice-skating with Stuart and Kelly and Kelly's friend, and that was fun-fun, even though I can't ice-skate for shit, and I only fell over a couple of times, and those were in the last few minutes.
And on Sunday night, Skye had a movie night that was also fun, and involved us eating a tub of ice cream (yay!) between the four of us (me, Skye, Terri, and Mandy) and watching random movies.
And then on Monday night I went and watched the fireworks at my neighbour's.
Tuesday was good.
Wednesday was also good. Wednesday was pretty gosh-darned good. I'm feeling very smug. :)
Thursday was good, and it was fun, and I brought Stuart and Amy back here, and we entertained each other (in an un-sexual manner, thank you very much, all you gutter-minded people - yes, I love you all anyway =p) and then entertained the children (my brother and cousin, nine and seven respectively), which was fun. Oh, that reminds me, it's little Hamish's birthday today, he is now eight.
Today was awesomeness. I did my minor assessment piece thing in drama and that went reasonably well. And then I wented to Civic with the awesome people of awesomeness - Amy, Skye, Ryan, plus Isaac and minus Stuart, so not quite the usual group of awesome people. But awesome nonetheless!

So yeah, Skye is eighteen soon! So, eighteenth birthday party for her :) She's looking for somewhere to have it besides her house, though, because her parents weere all, bla bla no more than five people bla. But one of Skye's presents will be shared, and that will be awesome. Hopefully. Provided it all works out.
I think the next eighteenth of anyone in my part of the group is Ryan's, and then I'm not sure whether there's anyone else's between his and Stuart's.
I'm not eighteen till the year after next :(

Mm... so, peoples, ten cents to anyone who can guess why I'm so happy now?
Go on. One word. Six letters. First is S, last is T. Mm? My magician, yes. I haves me a loverly loverly boyfriend, and that has made me very happy indeed. Because. Because he is good for my self-esteem =p because he is wonderful and kind and sweet to me. And he is cute, but refuses to accept that fact. Tee hee.

Mnyarp mnyarp, anyway. Tis sleepy-nap time for Caitlin.

Oh yes, the reason boys smell so funny. It's their deoderant. It's like manly air freshener. Even the thought of it is hilarious, so how could the smell not be funny?
Mwa, mwa. Love for all.

Look, more crap.

You Need Some Black in Your Life

Black will make you feel powerful, in control, and not bound to what other people think of you. And with a little black, you will project a aura of mystery, rebellion, and dominance. If you want people to respect you, you've got to get a little black in your life! For extra punch: Combine black with orange or red The downside of black: People won't be able to "read" you - and may perceive you as more aggressive than you actually are The consequences of more black in your life: You'll become a figure of intrigue and speculation You'll be better prepared for life's unknown path You'll rest better and free yourself of expectations

What Color Do You Need?

You Are the Ace of Clubs

You go at everything in your life full force. You are a natural gambler. Your life definitely has some extreme highs and lows, but you know how to ride out the low times. A total adventure seeker, you are never satisfied by what's normal or ordinary. You like to push limits and shock people. You're dramatic, but a drama queen. Your life has been a wild ride so far. You have stories that people can barely believe. And you're probably still young... with a lot of wild rides in front of you. A gamble you should take: High stakes roulette Your friends would describe you as: Crazy Your enemies would describe you as: Demented If you lived in Vegas, you would be: A high roller

What Playing Card Are You?

And if I change the one answer I was unsure on:

You Are the Ace of Hearts

Youthful and playful, you love life and the world. You have a kind spirit, and you bring happiness to everyone you know. Artistic and bold, you see the world in bright colors. And you certainly aren't afraid to express everything you see and feel. You are sentimental, and your emotions are very deep. You are easily swept away and easily hurt. A gamble you should take: Blackjack Your friends would describe you as: Unique Your enemies would describe you as: Weepy If you lived in Vegas, you would be: An up and coming chef or fashion designer

What Playing Card Are You?

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird. A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone. You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

Your Kisses Are Medium-Hot

Your kisses are definitely sexy, but you're not about to make anyone gasp for air. You take it slow and steady... and you ramp things up when you get the right signals. Your kissing style is adaptable and adept. And people who kiss you love it!

How Hot Are Your Kisses?

(Tee hee hee)

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Guy Should You Date?

Scorpio, whee ^-^

Your Sensitivity Score: 76%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you. You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down. But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

My psychologist says I should be less sensitive...

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance. At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower. And at other times, you are wise like an iris. And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

What Color Flower Are You?

I am not cold.

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

Your Love Is Represented By a Pink Rose

You see love as something that should be light, fun, and whimsical. People fall in love with you easily. And you tend to fall out of love easily! You express your love through attention and shared experiences. You love people more than they realize.

What Rose Represents Your Love?

I think the last sentence is the only right one there.

You Are Chardonnay

Fresh, spirited, and classic - you have many facets to your personality. You can be sweet and light. Or deep and complex. You have a little bit of something to offer everyone... no wonder you're so popular. Approachable and never smug, you are easy to get to know (and love!). Deep down you are: Dependable and modest Your partying style: Understated and polite Your company is enjoyed best with: Cold or wild meat

What Kind of Wine Are You?

Heheh... heh.

Will so be true:

MISSING: Caitlin

Was last seen screaming about the end of the world

'What will you last be seen doing?' at QuizGalaxy.com

... How very peculiar:

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Ahahaha:

Caitlin's secret lucky charm is: "Dungeons and Dragon figurines" Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Oh, was this what I was after?:

Romance Romance is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You need romance in your life. You love the extra dimension that romance brings to a relationship and you tend to fall in love very quickly. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Tee hee hee hee hee!:

	Caitlin Pills: Will cause you to fight for your right to party
	'What effect do you have on people?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Oh em gee, made me cackle out loud (and spray the chocolate powder I was eating out my nose and all over the keyboard):

Valentine's Day Advice From QuizGalaxy to Caitlin
	"A potato sack with a heart drawn on in crayon is not sexy lingerie."
What is your Valentine's Day advice? at QuizGalaxy.com

Oh my god, yes. (apart from the whole, eye-jabbing thing >.>)

What will happen on the first day of school?

• Stuart will jam you in the eye with a pen when you ask to borrow one

• Skye will skip the first day... and probably the second

• Maddie will break up with their SO to go out with you

• Amy will invite you to be their alter-ego superhero sidekick

• Ryan will eat their lunch and yours while tearfully recounting their summer

'What will happen on the first day of school?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Ouch... SO ouch:

Through Song... Your significant other will write you a song to express just how much they don't like you Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Yay:

You are 80% likeable

You are a very likeable person. You have good manners and you are very friendly. You have tons of friends and no enemies.

'How Likeable are You?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Hum:

Your Dating Style: Committed Relationship

You are all about being in a committed long term relationship. You are all about the love and security that it brings.

'What is your dating style?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Psh:

You are a shy flirt You are more inclined to leave anonymous love notes for your crush then go up and ask them out. You prefer to leave the ball in their court and see where it takes you. A lot of people find this style romantic, but sometimes you are going to have to work up the nerve and ask your crush out, because if your crush is shy too, you may both like each other and never know. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Er... I doubt it/hope not:

Death through drugs/alcohol You are going to die drowning after drinking too much/doing too many drugs. Dying like all of the greatest rockers – because you live like one. You like to party and experiment with perception. Rock on hippie. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Eh... it might be true >.< :

Talking about your ex Your first date faux pas is talking about your ex. You may have just gotten out of a relationship and maybe you are not ready to start dating again. Your date does not want to hear about all the crappy things your last boyfriend or girlfriend did. Save that for your roommate. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Um... yay?:

You were a band geek in high school You were into staying late after school with your other band mates. You were into music and hooking up at random with your friends. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Pretty much:

"Intellectually" Intelligent You're 'Intellectually Intelligent.' That pretty much means that you're good with theoretical ideas and concepts - but this comes to you naturally. More or less, you're a natural brainiac. Good for you. 20% theoretical intelligence 80% natural intelligence

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

I do NOT want a big family >.<>

Family is most important in your life. Having a high focus on family indicates that you are a loving and nurturing person. You want to have a nice big family of your own, and you are very close with your siblings and parents. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

It's true! :

Caitlin's best excuse: "The government is after me" Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

I seeee...:

The Picto-Personality Test You are a person who is very calm and kind. You go out of your way to help people who need your help. When alone, you let it all hang out and ignore every social convention. You are laid back. Anything goes, with you. In the future you will be wise and healthy.

Take this Test at QuizGalaxy.com

Um... I really don't think so:

Caitlin's lame-ass excuse to break up: "You've held me back for long enough! I'm going to clown college!" 'What is your lame-ass excuse to break up?' at QuizGalaxy.com

That's not lame, that's awesome:

Caitlin's lame comeback line: "You're such a badger."

'What is your lame comeback line?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Uh... ouch?:

What ridiculous surgery should Caitlin get?

Have your clothes singed to your body so you never have to get naked

'What ridiculous surgery should you get?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I cry myself to sleep at night because of this. My body odour is not my fault :'( :

Why do people run from Caitlin?

You smell like turnips

'Why do people run from you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

... o.O:

Caitlin's Carny ability:

You can resurrect headless chickens with nothing more than a candied apple

'What is your Carny ability?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Yay, only 55%! :

	You are 55% messed up. You are messed up. You may not show how messed up you are all the time - but you have been known to get crazier than Mariah Carey on occasion.
'How messed up are you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

This quiz is boring:

About Me...
Figured out the meaning of the universe when drunk, then forgot it Left a note on a shower steamed mirror Felt truly happy for a moment Become a pirate Been late for an exam	Done any extreme sports Cheated on a lover Had an imaginary friend Strutted my stuff in front of my crush Eaten at Arby's
The 'About Me' Quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Yay! Except I don't have a phone :'( :

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Oh my gosh, what a way to go indeed :

You'll die from a Heart Attack during Sex.

Your a lover not a fighter but sadly, in the act of making love your heart will stop. But what a way to go.

'How will you die?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Oh gosh, it's true!:

Elspeth and Peter are Proud to Announce the Birth of their Child, Caitlin, on January 23, 1991.

Unfortunately, Caitlin is a genius baby.

Elspeth and Peter are in stunned silence.

What Did Your Birth Announcement Say? at QuizGalaxy.com

Uh... ?:

	Caitlin was abducted by aliens
	The aliens were attracted by the hypnotic nostrils of Caitlin
'What will your Headline be?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Hum. They notice me as "The girl gibbering randomly in the corner":

	Type O
	People with O type blood are brave, outgoing, fun, courageous and confident. You are very popular and make friends easily. You also are very attention grabbing, and people always notice you.
'What does your blood type say about you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Tee hee:

Caitlin's synonym -- weird (... as in horrific!) 'What is your synonym?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I AM sixteen >.>:

You date like you are 16 years old. You are fairly new at the dating game and are still trying to figure out what type of guy or girl you are into. You enjoy dating around and tend to get crushes on many different types of people. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

I am a good girl:

Are you Good or Evil?

You are mostly Good (80%), but still a bit Evil (20%)

'Are You Good or Evil?' (QuizGalaxy.com)

o.O:

Where will you be stabbed?
	BY WHO? Al Capone WHY? You fingered them in court
Where will you be stabbed? at QuizGalaxy.com